DELETING POSTs

I been writing a few blog posts for my blog and when I finish I press delete/close.
In the middle of the post I would delete part of the post, or restart it all over again.
Why am I not able to press publish and I just delete them?
Just checked how many days I haven't posted on the blog and I ponder, is it that I have so much I want to tell or so little that I can just press delete.

I think that it would be a good Idea if I start to write and what I write just leave it in draft and publish.
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I am just going to take courage and press Publish..